You could never keep a secret well. Not even your own. How could he trust you with something this big? This important? You might not have told anyone but me, but still it's not something you should tell anyone. I wouldn't have told anyone. That's why it should be me in your position. You don't deserve him. You lead him on for years, lying to him and what happens? You end up with him! I on the other hand get to worry about what's going to happen when you two break up. Oh, I know it will happen. He'll realize you aren't meant for him. Then he'll realize that’s I'm the one who really loves him.
I wish that all that was true. I know deep down that you really do love him and he loves you. You do deserve him. I don't. I'm just the jealous younger brother who doesn't understand. I just wish you hadn't of told me so I could just keep on dreaming about what could never be. Me and him. We wouldn’t be as perfect as him and you. Nick and Kevin doesn't sound nearly as good Kevin and Joe.
So I'll just sit here feeling sorry for myself while you're out there having fun and doing God knows what with the love of my life. You know what? I'll be fine. Okay that was a total lie. It's hard breathing sometimes because I know I'll never have him. Then I look at you and it gets even harder because I know you hold him close every night. But you what this is going to change tonight. Nick is going to get his turn (and maybe stop speaking in the third person).
"Kevin?" I asked quietly outside of his door. You were in there and I knew it. I have ears you know and I'm not stupid. I know what goes on behind that door.
"Hold on!" His voice was rushed and breathy, it made me cringe. A few seconds later the door flew open revealing him looking disheveled. Looking behind him I noticed you pulling your shirt on over your head. "What Nick?" Seeing you like this broke my heart and left me breathless all at the same time.
"Nothing, never mind." I whispered walking away. I heard the door shut after I was half way to my room. Maybe things will change tomorrow…